Never Stop Questioning

It’s funny how the world works.

What makes you think of a certain person? Do a certain action? Watch that movie? Get those weird feelings inside? People usually respond with God or some higher power. I don’t think that way, but I am always astounded by the way nature works. The past week has been particularly interesting,  surely I have had weeks like this before but I figured that I would write about this one.

Late at night when  I can’t sleep I tend to ponder Facebook. Just skimming through profiles or whatever, friends and non-friends; catching up on all the latest and greatest. Well, I recently visited an old friend’s profile out of random curiousity – haven’t caught up in a while. I don’t message or talk to or add as a friend again. Because honestly I don’t care; I’m only interested in them at this given time. It’s weird and creepy but whatever. Anyway, just out of the blue, two days after I looked at their profile on Facebook, they messaged me. Now, keep in mind, we haven’t talked in years. So this was really weird, but like I said, nature is pretty fascinating.

It gets better. Four and two days ago, meaning on two occasions,  my boyfriend and I were watching Mrs. Doubtfire. We love that movie. And we were commenting on it’s greatness as well as how awesome Robin Williams was. We’ve always wanted to know if he adlibbed that whole animation scene, as well if the way the wig scene was filmed was the way it was intended. Through watching the movie, laughing of course, I was reminded that I really wanted to buy Dead Poet’s Society because I also freaking love that movie – and I am just starting my teaching career. I can see it now……tearing out the pages of the math textbook.. Hahahaha I seriously love that movie. THEN ROBIN WILLIAMS DIES oh my goodness I almost started crying. I am legitimately heartbroken over his death. I don’t care for celebrities too much, but he was one of the few. He was in all my childhood movies making me laugh,  cry, think about life. I am so sad for his passing. I am also happy that he is no longer suffering. While I wish his condition could have been cured or managed, it put a lot of things into perspective. It shows that even though you, publicly, are an awesome person and have things that others dream of having,  you aren’t always happy. All those things, despite what people think, don’t make you happy – I mean they can for a while, but certainly not long term. It’s so crazy.

Life works so weirdly. Have you ever thought about why you went through certain “life events”? Or crossed paths with a certain someone? Thought about why you think or the method of your thinking and why you might think that way? Life is so cool when you start thinking and connecting all those characteristics.




Opening statement

I don’t believe in a god or a higher power or anything similar. I believe in science for how we were created, the feelings we experience and the way life works. I respect every form of religion and what people believe. No one is right and no one is wrong. We all have different perspectives on the world and take the life that’s thrown at us in ways that we feel most comfortable. I say this so you know where I’m coming from.

I was initially baptized as Catholic, but what did i know then? My family is semi-religious; I would say that they have faith but don’t go to church. I attended church a few times. While I think the structures are beautiful,  I couldn’t relate to anything the priest was saying. I didn’t believe any of it. Also around that time I felt as though religion was being thrown down my throat – “you must believe this because it’s right. No other way makes sense.” I’m sorry, that’s not true. Nature has a funny way of working. So needless to say it put a bad taste of religion in my mouth.

It wasn’t until I was older that I was actually interested in seeing how other religions did their thing. So, I went to other services and actually had a lot of fun. People were dancing and singing and just having a good time. While I didn’t 100% agree, I went along with it. (By going along with it, I mean by being respectful of their ways. I won’t recite group prayers – well one because I don’t pray but two because if I don’t believe it I think it’s wrong to say it with people who do believe in it. It’s just one of my forms of respect.) One of my favorite services was in Zebilla, Ghana. I believe it was an Anglican service but I’m not entirely sure. Regardless of the small language barrier, I enjoyed singing the songs and dancing around with people I had never met before. It was really cool.

The whole point of this post is that within this category [the spiritual journey] I will be discussing my views as I attempt to read the bible. Yup you read that correctly.  I am going to read the bible. No I haven’t even really looked at one before. If it makes you feel better I pronounced ‘job (joe-buh)’ as ‘jaahb’ like the career or working a job. Also I wasn’t aware of the fact that there are 60 something books/stories in ‘the bible’. I honestly thought it was this big one hunk of paper. [Kinda]

So I’m going to read the book and see what it’s all about. I’m going about it with an open mind however I do have a short temper at times. hahahaha

Anyway, feel free to read any posts following this one as I embark on this spiritual journey. I don’t have a particular goal; I’m not searching for myself. I am honestly curious.

Thanks for reading! 🙂

Xo, Lze