Why do you run?
This – or anything to do with running – seems to be a common question/topic in my life. Why? Probably because I throw it in people’s faces through talking about it, posting on Facebook, and pinning on Pinterest. Some probably find it annoying, but I don’t mind though.
I haven’t always been runner. Actually I stayed away from it until about two years ago. It’s not that I hated running, I just didn’t understand why people wanted to run all over the place for fun. Who wants to do that for fun? I was a walker; I loved to walk long distances. I had this thing with running. I was under the impression that I had to run the whole time, be fast and not out of breath. I was always afraid of what the people behind me thought: Did you see that girl? She totally just started running then stopped! It has only been 3 minutes! What a loser. Now if they actually thought that I have no idea, but I can tell you that for a time I couldn’t run longer than like 10 minutes at a time (thank you asthma). But I stuck with it. I said ‘Screw you people I don’t know! I don’t care what you think of me!‘ and began running. Slowly, but surely.
⌈That whole thing about worrying what others think is a load of bullshit. You do you, and whatever the hell you want to do. This is much easier said than done, but it’s so worth it. I’m not fully there yet, however, I can feel a weight lifted off my shoulders already. ⌋
I’m not madly in love with running – okay actually that’s a lie. I’m training for a marathon…There are times when I don’t want to run, but then I do and I feel AHHHH-MAZING. Running is me time. While running with a buddy is always fun, I’ve tackled this journey all by myself so far because none of my friends are crazy enough to run with me. And by crazy enough I mean that they think a 5k is far. But that’s okay, I don’t mind running by myself. I enjoy being surrounded by nature (or a gym if I really, really, like seriously have to) and music. Yes, I run with music. Yes it’s dangerous, but I take precautions. Music is my passion so why not mix it with running? Anyway, some people think or solve problems or let their imagination fly when they run. I literally run with an empty mind being alert of my surroundings. I don’t think or solve any problems. I do motivate myself occasionally with “you only have one more mile to go!” or “you’re halfway there!” I think that’s why I enjoy it so much. When I’m not running I’m either solving math/physics/life problems, thinking too much or worrying far more than I ever should. Running gives me a break. I have too many other things going on to think about anything else other than not getting hit by a car or abducted..
At one time I didn’t think I would make a mile, or two – nevermind say “It’s only 3.1 miles. You’ll be fine.” Now, I’d consider myself a long distance runner. While the farthest I’ve run to date is about 6.5 miles, my attitude says “You will run much farther than the 26.2 mile race.” I don’t know how I do it, but I prefer the longer distances. They make me feel better. Also, It isn’t about how long it takes you. What matters is that you finished. In some cases, like qualifying times, yeah that doesn’t really apply, but a mile is a mile no matter how long it takes you to get there.
I don’t necessarily run for exercise or to stay in shape. Of course it helps. And yes, sometimes I do use the excuse of ‘It’s okay. I ran today’ to indulge in some decadent dessert. But that’s not the reason why I run. I do choose running as part of my exercise but you can thank carpal tunnel in both wrists for that one. I’m not allowed to play sports anymore or lift super heavy weights. So, I just have really strong legs.
I run: to be happy, to feel good, to clear my mind, to push my limits, to say ‘look what I can do’, because I can.